yeah its been awhile... but... omg... erika spent the night last night or... wait no it was saturday night, whatever... but bobby called my phone and out of nowhere asked if he could come over. they ended up coming over around 3 or 4 in the morning. lol erika and i were in our pajamas without shoes (ronnie gave me his jacket ) and we went to the park but it was too cold so we just stayed in the car and talked, then went to jack in the box. it may sound like we did nothing at all, but i still had a great time. there really kewl. and hopefully im gunna be with them tonite. <33cuz ronnie is so hot!!!<33 like really hot. *daydreams*

lol neways... austin was in palm springs with david and i didnt get to see him friday, i missed him. but im not sure how he exactly feels about me. i really like him, i think it's just that he's really shy. and i dont know why, but i am to. im usually not like that.but i just love being with him. I dont think im grounded anymore, cuz erika came over, but i dont know. but i hope that i get to go somewhere with him. and not just ditch 6th all the time. damnit i have to go to detention like everyday. maybe today i will just screw it... 20 minutes of sleeping... not for me... I REFUSE TO SLEEP!!!ARRRGGGHHHH!!!! -end-

so today is monday. ive had a long tiring last week. Let me tell you my story (well at least the parts i remember)...

Wednesday:

It was about, i dont know, like around 6 oclock, i think, and my dad decided to be a total jerk. He was obviously on sumthen, again. so i couldnt take it and left. He was rambling on about sumthen that i made heaven seem like hell... ?!??!?!?!wtf yeah i thought the same thing. neways, i left thinking, hey, i havent seen marc in a long ass time so i went over there. We stayed up all night long at chris's house with some friends. When it reached about 5, almost 6, i realized i had school the next day, well in like an hour, (yeah i was a little out of it at the time ). But i was way too out of it to do anything at school. So i went back to marc's house, but his mom was home and i couldnt go inside. so we sneaked inside. but it was his sister's room. i was worn out so we both fell asleep. about 2 hours later we heard his sister coming a little too late. she walked in, thinking we were having sex on her bed. well i would be mad too. but no, we didnt have sex. that comes later in the story .

Thursday:

i woke up around hummm... 10 maybe.... yeah ok. and i basically did nothen but be lazy and walk around with marc to see what everyone else was doin. well everyone else was basically doin what we were doing: nothen. later around like 7 marc wanted "alone" time, he is such a jerk. when he wants sumthen he gets it or he throws a fit. i swear. and i give in everytime. thats all the detail im going into that. personal. later when i got home, (by this time i havent eaten in like 2 days, and slept about 2 hours.) my dad was really calm, all he asked me was why i didnt call him and tell him where i was. maybe cuz i dont want him knowing where marc lives. or chris. or anyone. yeah i came home and fell asleep.

Friday:

friday, i finally went to school. but never came home. i ditched swimming, went over to erikas, and we both went over to davids to go swimming. BUT... what i didnt know was... austin was coming over later on that day. DAMN. is he hot. omg and he is cute with his shirt off... ok ok ok im ok i swear. well we before we came inside to watch movies i want to make it clear that I DID CALL HOME BUT NO ONE WOULD PICK UP. just making that clear. yeah ok. well david and erika cuddled up on the couch... i dont go on from there... erika you know what i mean. and austin and i sat near each other on the other side of the couch. i swear the whole movie i wanted to jump on top of him lol. well around 9 i had to leave and i couldnt stay at erikas so when her mom took me home. I ALSO WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR THAT I ACTUALLY WAS GOIGN HOME BUT NO ONE WAS THERE. so i stoped by marcs, but i didnt want to bother him so i stoped by chris's. we talked and i told him i didnt have anywhere to go. so he let me stay there with him and let me sleep on the couch and he slept on the floor. i think he is so sweet. there is just sumthen about him. but thats the reason why im shy around him. hes like really older than me, and i dont wanna lead him on, even tho its hard not to.

Saturday:

Over at Chris's, his daughter and son was over. (awww he only gets to see them every other weekend.) well he let me take a shower, gave me food, coffee.i helped with the kids as they kept jumping on top of me. and i cant forget that one time when his daughter, autumn, was practically on top of my head and my stomach was showing. he touched my stomach so softly. and i just pretended i didnt notice, but i did. i cant get it out of my mind. in a good way. but later i saw my sister and she told me to come home or i would lose my job. so i came home.

Sunday:

sunday was a drag. all my dad did was yell at us and tell us how much he hated me. just me. so i ignored him. didnt even phase me. he is stupid. so jsut to get away from his stupidness, i went to my grandmas with my sister. you can imagine what we did the rest of the day, nothen.

Monday:

so today is... school. and i found out austin likes me. thats the good part. the(WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) bad news is the next time he kicks me out and he calls the police and tells them that i ran away, i lose my job. but actually i dont have my job yet, im going for a second interview today. but if i dont get it... lets just say his life will be a living hell. so i kinda hope i dont get the job. ALL MY LOVE TO NESSA... and austin. i so hope he asks me out. YEY! ok im done...

So... im here at erikas... shhh kelly dont tell anyone that im over here. and by the way... just stop reading my xanga's!! so how far have you gotten in ff tactics, what about x? HUH HUH HUH!?!? thought so... *giggles*

omg i have the worst headache and its cuz of swimming, or i could be having an aniexty attack... im always tired and i wake up every morning sick to my stomache... wait a minute... no that isnt possible i havent had sex!.... unless... it was nessa... WASNT IT!! lol ok i gotta go lay down, i dont feel good. lol